life with out internet

So here i am sitting on my friend's couch on her laptop cause i have no internet at home... i didnt realize 1) how much time i acutally spent on the computer or 2) how much i used it for more than looking at myspace... damn that time warner and the bill and damn all the the rest that are attempting to collect money from me that i do not have... to be stuck in the middle of a rock and a hard space truely sucks... too much money to get help but not enough to actually get by without robbing peter to pay paul or in my instance robbing time warner to pay sprint!!!

Change

So yesterday i went and literally CHOPPED off my hair... it has been bugging me for sometime for many different reasons, but i finally got rid of it. I feel so lite and sexy.. i have not felt like this in a long time.. i think i could get used to this whole taking care of myself thing....

extreme crankiness

have you ever felt so cranky you can not even stand yourself??? this is my feeling of the day... i am so irritable and miserable i can not even stand to be in my own skin... i have so much on my mind and so much to deal with at this point in time i am having trouble being anything other than cranky... lord please help me, help me to give it to you.. you will decide all things in the end.. please relieve this stress!

A new journey

So around the beginning of the year i started attending this church called Northway Church. I have never been so proud or so happy in my faith. I was raised in a catholic home and received my 1st communion and my confirmation at my own will but i REALLY feel like i belong now. Every service i go to i sing my head off ( i figure good, bad or terrible God gave me this voice so i can give it back), and with each and every service (some more than others) i feel as if the message is directed straight at me... not in a bad way but in and inspiring "stop being lazy and pray" kinda way. We had a period in my church in which we were fasting.. ( not all day from food but from one thing over all that we enjoy) well i fasted and i prayed every day for strength and above all i thanked God for everything i have and every breath i took, i have never felt as good as i did during that month.... i think it is time to do it again.. maybe i will get some answers to my questions and maybe not.. but i am feeling compelled to do this so i think i need to... wish me luck.. better yet.. pray for me..

Another Day Lost

Ok so here it is 6pm and I have only been up for 1 hour. I don't know about anyone else but this working nights and getting broken sleep thing is killing me. After over 3 years of working nights and 12 or more hours a shift I wonder..... what it would be like on the world's schedule, what would it be like to work Monday thru Friday and have nights and weekends to enjoy with my daughter??? Last night i really didn't do much thanks to my coworker on orientation, but to keep busy i developed a resume and was able to email it to a few places. I really need a day job.. any ideas?? i can not take my little one begging me not to go to sleep any more, not to mention the thought of all the things i could have accomplished today but did not because i could not keep my eyes open more than 5 minutes....

Long night at work

So here I am blogging for the first time... I am at work and well.. not too busy. I have wanted to try this for a while so here it goes.. not really sure what they will be about but here I am blogging world watch out!!!