Melting

So as of today 3/9/09 I have officially lost 30lbs... I started on an optimal health program on Jan 11th and it is working wonders... I still have a ways to go but i am so excited for the future and the possibility of being skinny...

i'm back

So it has been since October 24th since i was able to post a blog.. wow your probably thinking "here she goes..." As much as i would love to procrastinate from the inevitable job of doing paperwork and cleaning my house i am not going to do that tonight... i just wanted to say i'm back and i am hoping to get back into the blogging thing.. hope all is well with the world.. and i'll catch up with u soon!

long time

so here i am chillin with my miemie in her awesome appartment feelin a lil on the jellous side that her appartment is soo much better than mine and that i have to use her laptop because i have no internet.... so i admit im a hater.. oh well... anyways im hoping to have a laptop and be back in touch with the world in the next two weeks... talk to you all soon!!!

Another one of those days...

So here I am on the final count down to a "normal" schedule... I am not sure if it is the fact that i am so close to having a "normal" schedule that is making the night shift so much worse or if it is the fact that I just plain do not get enough sleep. As usual I got home from work at 8am on Monday morning to have my perky little princess greet me in the bedroom as I attempted to lay my head on the pillow.. as the day went I became more and more cranky and short tempered... Thank the Lord that I was able to take a nap before coming in for another 8 hours and the wonderful drive here which allowed me to thank God for the day.... 3 night shifts left and counting.. Next hurtle picking a daycare/preschool and getting Nevaeh ( and myself) on a steady sleep schedule... PRAYERS WILL BE NEEDED!!!!

And so it goes...

Have you ever made an annoucement that you were going to do something and then never foloow thru... ya ever feel like crap after?? that is my situation... i posted a new blog not to long ago about starting to fast again in attempt to get some answers... and well i never got to it... i have been so wrapped up in my "stuff" that i was unable to do what really needed to be done.. Once again after an extremely moving service at Northway Church today ( a lil shout out for those of you who don't know it.. check it out if ya need the info contact me), i feel as thou God is calling me to get in line.. not only with praying but with eating right and taking care of myself as well as my beautiful littlw girl. I am in for many changes in the next couple of weeks on top of the changes that i have gone throu over the last couple of months.. althought i plan on praying for God's help and guidence.. if any of you get a chance put in a good word or two for me... I NEED THE HELP!!!!

life with out internet

So here i am sitting on my friend's couch on her laptop cause i have no internet at home... i didnt realize 1) how much time i acutally spent on the computer or 2) how much i used it for more than looking at myspace... damn that time warner and the bill and damn all the the rest that are attempting to collect money from me that i do not have... to be stuck in the middle of a rock and a hard space truely sucks... too much money to get help but not enough to actually get by without robbing peter to pay paul or in my instance robbing time warner to pay sprint!!!

Change

So yesterday i went and literally CHOPPED off my hair... it has been bugging me for sometime for many different reasons, but i finally got rid of it. I feel so lite and sexy.. i have not felt like this in a long time.. i think i could get used to this whole taking care of myself thing....